548 days, 12 hours, 0 minutes and 34 seconds

That's the amount of time that has passed since our lives changed forever. 1 year, 6 months and 12 hours ago Thomas entered the world and 5 minutes later Nathan followed suit. At the time I remember feeling overwhelmed by the lack of emotion. I was scared, worried, tired and sore but more than anything I was astonished to find that I had felt closer to my babies when they were inside me than I did once they were out.

18 months later and things couldn't have changed more. Now when I look at them I am overcome with love and pride and I truly wouldn't exchange the sleepless nights, dirty nappies, constipation or endless washing and housework for anything else.

There is no adequate description for the depth of emotion. I have no prose or turn of phrase to describe the absolute joy that they bring to my life at least none that truly does it any justice.

There are moments of desperation and I am thankful that these moments still occur if only to allow me to gain some perspective because this mommyness is heady stuff, easily addictive and altogether moreish.

Happy 1.5 birthday my babies, we've made it this far so we must be doing something right.

Love
Mama